Turning out - SotW [Week of 12-25-11]

Let me love what I love. Let me pretend. Or - let it all choke, let it die slowly. You have everything you need. For either. Neither. And all.

SotW 12/25
House Of The Rising Sun  Perf. by The White Buffalo for Sons of Anarchy

There is a house in Charming town,
They call the Rising Sun.
It’s been the ruin of many a poor girl.
And me, oh God I’m one.

If I listened to my mama,
Lord I’d be home today.
But I was young and foolish,
Handsome rider led me astray.

Go tell, my baby sister,
Never do what I have done.
To shun of the house in Charming town,
They call the Rising Sun.

My mother she’s a tailor.
She sewed my new blue jeans.
My sweetheart he’s a rambler,
Lord he rides an old machine.

Now the only thing a rambler needs
Is a suitcase and a gun.
The only time he’s satisfied
Is when he’s on the run.

He fills his chamber up with lead
And takes his pain to town.
Only pleasure he gets out of life,
Is bringing another man down.

He’s got one hand on the throttle,
The other on the brake.
He’s riding back to Redwood,
To own his father’s stake.

And me I wait in Charming town,
To gain my love as one.
And I’m staying here to end my life,
Down in the Rising Sun.

And I’m staying here to end my life,
down in the Rising Sun.

Yummy, yummy track.

Colder winters - SotW [Week of 12-18-11]

I have felt this way before, knowing before I step off, that I'll never predict the height of the fall. That I'll never step back. That I'd rather give, and let have; wait, and protect. I can help the first time, right until you see me walk to the edge. Willingly.

SotW 12/18

Rest, Shame, Love Augustana

Breaking up with your breakdown

Standing tall in your white gown

You're going nowhere, you're going fast

Slowing down but you'll never last

Take your time woman, take your time

It's the wrong dream with the wrong man

With a cold gun in your own hand

Get it right this time, get it off your mind

Let the summer rain bring you rest and shame and love

Carve your name in a black stone

Swear to God we won't let go

If you can't love babe then you can't hurt

We take the good times with the worst

Take your time woman, take your time

It's the wrong dream with the wrong man

With a cold gun in your own hand

Get it right this time, get it off your mind

Let the summer rain bring you rest and shame and love

It's the wrong dream with the wrong man

With a cold gun in your own hand

Get it right this time, get it off your mind

Let the summer rain bring you rest and shame and love

Let the summer rain bring you rest and shame and love

And love, and love, and love, and love, and love

Listeny listen mclisten

Matter of time - SotW [Week of 12-11-11]

We were both shocked when you broke down. And when you let me in on the ruin, you learned the place where I had made my home before.

SotW 12/11
Let Me In! Siriusmo

Get movin'

Could stay longer - SotW [Week of 12-4-11]

Act like a child, and that is how I will treat you. Not in a silly, cute, gizmo sort of way; but a gremlin. Remember the blender?

SotW 12/4
California 2005 Phantom Planet

We’ve been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come
Right back where we started from

Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from

California!
Here we come!

On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing’s gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin’ of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from

California!
Here we come!

Unforeseen - SotW [Week of 11-27-11]

I can't remember exactly when that fight was, when I finally looked at you and couldn't let you walk out. It was early on. After that, you never looked the same, and the fight was with myself.

SotW 11/27
Trying Not To Love You Nickelback

You call to me, and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more?
And our time apart, like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more?

But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

And this kind of pain, only time takes away
That's why it's harder to let you go
And nothing I can do, without thinking of you
That's why it's harder to let you go
But if there's a pill to help me forget,
God knows I haven't found it yet
But I'm dying to, God I'm trying to

'Cause trying not to love you, only goes so far
Trying not to need you, is tearing me apart
Can't see the silver lining, from down here on the floor
And I just keep on trying, but I don't know what for
'Cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more

So I sit here divided, just talking to myself
Was it something that I did?
Was there somebody else?
When a voice from behind me, that was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me, and whispered right in my ear
Tonight I'm dying to tell you

That trying not to love you, only went so far
Trying not to need you, was tearing me apart
Now I see the silver lining, from what we're fighting for
And if we just keep on trying, we could be much more
'Cause trying not to love you
Oh, yeah, trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
Only makes me love you more

Here tis

Over the ferns - SotW [Week of 11-20-11]

You want to spend that many hours in a car with me. You want to be there, cook, wake up. But one day you won't. I'm young and inexperienced - except with heartbreak. Know that.

SotW 11/20
The Crane Wife 3  The Decemberists

And under the boughs unbowed
All clothed in a snowy shroud
She had no heart so hardened
All under the boughs unbowed

Each feather it fell from skin
Till threadbare while she grew thin
How were my eyes so blinded?
Each feather it fell from skin

And I will hang my head, hang my head low
And I will hang my head, hang my head low

A gray sky, a bitter sting
A rain cloud, a crane on wing
All out beyond horizon
A grey sky, a bitter sting

And I will hang my head, hang my head low
And I will hang my head, hang my head low

For a listen.

No honeymoon stage - SotW [Week of 11-13-11]

I love curling up in my nostalgia blanket with you. I like talking about casette tapes, pogs, and The Land Before Time. I think maybe we could be new best friends. That you could be my favorite past time.

SotW 11/13
Fast Car Tracy Chapman

You got a fast car
And I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
And I got a plan to get us out of here
I been working at the convenience store
Managed to save just a little bit of money
We won't have to drive too far
Just 'cross the border and into the city
You and I can both get jobs
And finally see what it means to be living

You see my old man's got a problem
He live with the bottle that's the way it is
He says his body's too old for working
I say his body's too young to look like his
My mama went off and left him
She wanted more from life than he could give
I said somebody's got to take care of him
So I quit school and that's what I did

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

You got a fast car
And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
You still ain't got a job
And I work in a market as a checkout girl
I know things will get better
You'll find work and I'll get promoted
We'll move out of the shelter
Buy a big house and live in the suburbs

You got a fast car
And I got a job that pays all our bills
You stay out drinking late at the bar
See more of your friends than you do of your kids
I'd always hoped for better
Thought maybe together you and me would find it
I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
So take your fast car and keep on driving

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so you can fly away
You gotta make a decision
You leave tonight or live and die this way

Listen here.

Look, a pattern - SotW [Week of 11-6-11]

Striking. One of those times when I almost saw it, and one of those times I want to forget when looking back. You made me miss Reese Van Riper. I may always resent you for just that.

SotW 11/6
Creep Radiohead

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell I'm doing here?
I don't belong here

She's running out the door
She's running out
She runs runs runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

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