Only in hindsight - SotW [Week of 3-18-13]

Sometimes when I cry, or think too hard, or just absolutely love a moment, I wish someone could see me. Someone really knowing how I am, realizing that I am still me - when no one else is watching. 

SotW 3/18
John Fullbright Jericho

Go searching through this world
Wait on something to unfurl
Thinking back on toys and paper dolls
All I ever find are walls

Try to find myself out East
Maybe find comfort there at least
When I got there all I found
Somebody burned it to the ground

So let your trumpets blow
Round the walls of Jericho
Let your mighty voices sound
Till the walls come tumbling down

I searched for days for you out West
And I was greeted like a guest
Into the desert's open arms
Finding not your childlike charms

If these thoughts I hold be true
I lay down my traveling shoes
Let the vines grow over me
Let the Earth swallow my dreams

Let my trumpet blow
Round the walls of Jericho
Let my mighty voice be heard
Then speak not another word

Throw your arrows and your slings
And your other precious things
Outside your gate, I will stand tall
As you cower behind your wall

Look inside yourself to see
Where these walls appear to be
Let your soul step out to breathe
Swallow whole your dignity

And let your trumpet blow
Round the walls of Jericho
Let your mighty voices sound
Till the walls come tumbling-- come a-tumbling-- yeah

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Why the day is long - SotW [Week of 3-10-13]

I wrote a lot about this. And then I locked it in the vault.

SotW 3/3
Jeff Black Bless My Soul

I know why the blackbird sings

His strange and mournful song on a summer's night
I know why the spirit brings
Us back into this world until we get it right

I'm on a roll
And I begin to see the light
Bless my soul
I've been around so many times

I know why the baby cries
It's way into the arms of a mother's love
I know why true love survives
And it is more than the red hot fire of another's touch

I'm on a roll
And I am not afraid to fight
Bless my soul
On a long hot summer's night

I see fair to warn you
That there's nothing here to stop me
From drowning in the darkness
Of the things I can't control

The angel near my heaven
Who I know will always haunt me
Is constant and convincing
I've a long, long way to go

I know why the day is long
When there is no one to talk to about my dreams
I know when the evening comes
That I will know the song of desire that the blackbird sings

I'm on a roll
And I am not afraid to fight
Bless my soul
I've been around so many times

I see fair to warn you
That there's nothing here to stop me
From drowning in the darkness
Of the things I can't control

The angel near my heaven
Who I know will always haunt me
Is constant and convincing
I've a long, long way to go

Song here

In like a lion - SotW [Week of 3-3-13]

Where are they to pick up the pieces, of you. There was no water, or pillows, boxes, or clouds. Not a sinking feeling, not now. I remember stepping off. I remember falling. And I'll never forget that landing.

SotW 3/3

The Weepies World Spins Madly On

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
I thought of you and where you'd gone
Let the world spin madly on

Everything that I said I'd do
Like make the world brand new
And take the time for you
I just got lost and slept right through the dawn
And the world spins madly on

I let the day go by
I always say goodbye
I watch the stars from my window sill
The whole world is moving and I'm standing still

Woke up and wished that I was dead
With an aching in my head
I lay motionless in bed
The night is here and the day is gone
And the world spins madly on

I thought of you and where you'd gone
And the world spins madly on.

And it'll just keep spinning.

I can tell you how the tide works - SotW [Week of 2-24-13]

I hope someone will really see what you only think you saw, in me. That someone will not be able to walk away. There are so many you's. I miss them all differently, and randomly. I do have life going on, but no matter distraction my mind is always on you. Sometimes I can't look at you because I remember every single reason I love you; I haven't felt this since the last time, that one last time. 

SotW 2/24
AWOLNATION Sail

Sail

This is how I show my love
I made it in my mind because
I blame it on my A.D.D. baby

This is how an angel dies
I blame it on my own sick pride
Blame it on my A.D.D. baby

Sail
Sail
Sail
Sail
Sail

Maybe I should cry for help
Maybe I should kill myself (myself)
Blame it on my A.D.D. baby

Maybe I'm a different breed
Maybe I'm not listening
So blame it on my A.D.D. baby

Sail
Sail
Sail
Sail
Sail

La la la la la
La la la la la oh!
La la la la la,
La la la la la oh!
La la la la la,
La la la la la,

Sail
Sail
Sail
Sail
Sail

Sail with me into the dark
Sail
Sail with me into the dark
Sail
Sail with me into the dark
Sail
Sail with me into the dark
Sail
Sail with me into the dark
Sail

Sail

No surprises this year either - SotW [Week of 2-17-13]

Things I need to listen to, words I need to tell myself. The things I hate run into the things I love. Giving in, giving up, moving on, going back for more, and always always knowing it could be worse. Here this letter sits in front of me.

SotW 2/17
James Blake Retrograde

[Few artists make it on my SotW more than once. This is JB's third appearance. I swear, mad genius.]

You’re on your own, in a world you’ve grown
Few more years to go,
Don’t let the hurdle fall.
So be the girl you loved,
Be the girl you loved.

I’ll wait, so show me why you’re strong,
Ignore everybody else,
We’re alone now.
I’ll wait, so show me why you’re strong,
Ignore everybody else,
We’re alone now.

Suddenly I’m hit.
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone,
When you friends won’t come.
So show me where you fit.
So show me where you fit.

I’ll wait, so show me why you’re strong.
Ignore everybody else,
We’re alone now
We’re alone now
We’re alone now
I’ll wait
We’re alone now
We’re alone now
I’ll wait
We’re alone now
We’re alone now
We’re alone now
We’re alone now

Suddenly I’m hit.
Is this darkness of the dawn?
And your friends are gone,
When you friends won’t come.
So show me where you fit.
So show me where you fit.

CANNOT STOP LISTENING TO THIS

Hell, I'm a damn pillar of strength - SotW [Week of 2-10-13]

Every hour is another hour the wiser. Hurting makes sense, from intensity to numbness. And when the routine is heartbreak, we'll fulfill that prophecy. I hate seeing my greatest challenge and my greatest wish right in front of me, experiencing it, and then losing the possibility. You can see in pictures when someone is really smiling - so thankful it was caught, if only in that one moment.

SotW 2/10
The Lumineers Stubborn Love

She'll lie and steal and cheat, and beg you from her knees

Make you thinks she means it this time
She'll tear a hole in you, the one you can't repair
But I still love her, I don't really care

When we were young, oh oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh ooh, we bundled up
I can't be told, ah ah it can't be done

It's better to feel pain, than nothing at all
The opposite of love's indifference
Pay attention now, I'm standing on your porch screaming out
And I wont leave until you come downstairs

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love

I don't blame ya dear for running like you did, all these years
I would do the same, you best believe
The highway signs say we're close, but I don't read those things anymore
I never trusted my own eyes

When we were young oh oh, we did enough
When it got cold, ooh ooh we bundled up
I can't be told, ah ah, can't be done

So keep your head up, keep your love
Keep your head up, my love
Keep your head up, keep your love
Head up, love
Head up, love

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Who else is dreamin' - SotW [Week of 2-3-13]

I need to give the honesty that I expect. I need to know I am worth everything. I need care, I need assurance, I need what I have always just wanted. I need patience, and comfort, and confidence. I have strength, but I need support.

SotW 2/3

Grant Sabin Dreaming

[Note - lyrics up for debate :) just me and my attempt]

Well I feel it behind my eyes when I'm dreamin'
It's hard to count sheep, when all the sheep are screamin'
And there's no good reason to let the ship stay in disrepair

Let's chop it all up and make a thousand mile ..?
But the angels play a song of the undertone sins

Well just lay me down in the ocean and give me a good push towards the shore
That old lighthouse is callin' me and I ain't treadin water anymore
Cause I can feel it behind my eyes, like a beckoning light when I'm dreamin'
Oh yes, I feel it behind my eyes, like a beckoning light when I'm dreamin'

Well I feel it behind my eyes when I'm dyin'
It's hard to fight back when all your foals are cryin'
And there's no worth tryin' to sail in a sunken vessel

I'll just stare down to the water and wonder if it's there
And the darkness of the deep

Why don't ya just lay me down in the ocean and give me a good push towards the shore
That old lighthouse is callin' me and I ain't treadin water anymore
Cause I can feel it behind my eyes, like a beckoning light when I'm dreamin'
Oh yes, I feel it behind my eyes, like a beckoning light when I'm dreamin'

It burns behind my eyes like a tortured sky when I'm dreamin'

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